The Long Overdue Thought-out Post

As I logged in to post the following profound and thought provoking statements I realized that when I changed my background (forever ago) that I didn't reload any pictures, making this site rather boring and unattractive. For those who care, please accept my most humble apologies.

So I asked myself "What shall I write about today?" It is been quite awhile since I posted anything of great significance so today I thought I needed to blog more than random ramblings. Some of it will be random thoughts, but hey, it's my blog and it is in the description.

Band Tour:
Only one word needed-AWESOME! I was really looking forward to tour anyway, but my expectations were definitely exceeded this year. Even though I attend a Bible college and the people around me are supposed to be focused on the same "stuff" as I am, there is no guarantee. Anyway, I looked at this particular tour as an opportunity to grow and set aside time to regain some perspective. I had specific prayer requests that I brought to God with an open mind that He may not provide the answer in the way that I thought was the best. By day two one of the top requests was answered in a marvelous way. Along with the answered prayer came dishearting news, but in the midst of it all I had a very really peace and calm assurance that I was going to see the other side of the storm. A verse from one of the songs we played kept coming to my mind.

Pardon from sin and a peace that ENDURETH.

Thy own dear presence to cheer and to guide.

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow.

Blessings all mine with ten thousand beside.

Great is thy faithfulness.

Great is thy faithfulness.

Morning by morning new mercies I see.

All I have needed thy hand hath provided.

Great is thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me.

I made it. Another source of great joy was the prayer times we had together. You know how sometimes a group will go to prayer and all you hear is one person and, at least for me, it is hard to concentrate? Not so, my friend, when this band went to prayer we went to prayer. Overall this was a great tour.

(And you thought I was going to keep it to one word. hahaha)

Substituting and Library time:

Every once in a while the academy will call and ask me to sub when they are in a bind. This occurred not too long ago. I was in the first grade, which is not my favorite grade but for a day I don't care. There is a little boy in the class that stole my heart a long time ago. He calls me Ms. Cookie because I passed out cookies for snack time while he was in kindergarten. He always gives me a hug and smiles the biggest smile. His glasses are usually dirty and constantly slipping down his little nose. Anyway, three different times that day I had to repeat directions at least three times before he would obey. Finally, I pulled him aside and asked, "How many times have I had to ask you to obey today?" He hung his little head in shame and replied "At least a hundred!" It was so hard not to smile, but I think he got the point of the question.

I also interact with the academy for story time in the library every Thursday. It was raining a few weeks ago and a little boy was running after I asked them not to, but I assume the sprinkling was really getting to him. He fell. As any good overseer of children would do I asked if he was okay. Rubbing the arm of his leather coat he exclaimed, "Uuuugggghhh! And this is genuine leather, too!"

The Ah,ha! Moment:

Well, like I previously stated along with the answered prayer on tour came bad news. My grandfather had cancer and wouldn't make it through the week. On the way home from watching his father die, my father got REALLY sick and was admitted to the hospital for a bleeding ulcer. This was just the tip of the iceberg when considering my life for the past two years. One thing after another seemed to happen in our family. It has really stressed me out sometimes. After this past week I was feeling very insecure about life and what it had to offer. Change affects everyone, but for me it really throws me for a loop. For some reason it makes me really insecure and I feel like I have to fix the problem. As I was trying to wrap my mind around all the information I have gathered this past week about my family I had these struggles. Can I handle any more? What if the rest of my life is this chaotic? Will I ever feel secure? Then the moment came. The, "ah, ha! I get it!," moment. God doesn't change. I knew that, but I don't think I have ever appreciated it. In all the chaos and turmoil of living. The life changing situations that we as humans have absolutely no control over. God doesn't change. In Him we can rest assured that He will always be the one constant.

In the words of one of our favorite chapel speakers...."Can I get a witness?"